Things are so close to being accomplished, but I keep getting pulled away or at least I think I do. For example, I have been given a contact for a Bass player. Considering I have two drummers in the mix, this could complete the potential band I have been whining about for so long on this wonderful site of rambling. However, the number was given to me the Thursday before the July 4th weekend. Chaos is a short word, but very descriptive to the planning of the said weekend. Friday entailed wrapping all of the weekend chores; cutting the grass, grocery, clean the house, etc. Then that evening to the mother-in-laws for a semi-surprise b-day get together (Don’t ask). Saturday was the 4th of July cookout. Sunday was a friend’s 2 yr old’s b-day and followed it up with the first family dinner out. The now 10 month daughter was awesome and things went well. So, when did I call the bass player? It is now July 10th and I have yet to contact him. Tomorrow morning we leave to my parent’s lake house until late Sunday afternoon.
So much of my thinking sways to rational or rationalizing thinking. Look at the hectic schedule we had. Where could I fit a band in, I should just throw in the towel. The good thing is that we are giving our daughter chances to get out and see people, interact, experience, learn, and get a foundation of full life. I am grateful for the chaos. Yet, I did realize that I need to make the call because I would be supressing a chance to lead by example. I lot of the reason I truly have not called is because I have the anxiety calling a complete stranger and making effort to better my life. Yes it will devour time that I do not have, but I must work on time management and stop trying to coast through.
By the way GO SOX!
